My friend (and sister) suggested this. Maybe its what I need, an outlet to write on. I suppose I should just get it out and say I haven't quite gotten over her. All signs are pointing that she's over me and I want to be over her. Its' like, I don't know, maybe I just get easily lonely.
I see other couples and even though I don't know if all is sane in their paradise, I just wonder if I'm doing something wrong or wonder why I can't have that.
What do I need to do to get my mind off of this. I need to be better at being single. It just sucks that I can be such a hopeless romantic. I easily fall for women. The bad part is that I really develop feelings for my friends that are girls. Sarah its a wonder I havent gone after you yet lol.
Lauren, Rose, Amanda, Melissa, Kim, why do I have these feelings for them when I know they won't work. Kim an Rose will be in CA, Lauren has moved on, Melissa only sees me as a friend, and Amanda is the enigma.
I suppose what I'm getting at is I don't know what I want right now. I want a girl, I want to hold her and have her feel that she's safe with me, I want to be able to tell her I love her and hold her hands. However, am I really ready for that? There's still alot I can't do. Hell I can't even drive where I want when I want. I want to force myself to just be glad to be single. But every time I think about it, thats when I'm reminded how lonely I am.
Times like this make me wish I was a bit more casual around girls. Being so damn sensitive at this age and so damn romantic really isn't getting me anywhere.
